ghost

yesterday walking along the coast
I thought I saw you
rather I thought I saw your ghost
wasn’t who you are now
but who you were when
when we were more than friends
sitting with a beer, your hair up in a bun
sitting watching the sun… set
peaceful, calm
before any dumb… regret
I walked closer, seeing how close I could get
hoping for you to see
and stop and recognize me
maybe I’d be transported
back in time
before these months and forget
to a time before we ever met
a friend walked up
and sat next to you
then our son called to me
and I walked the other way
away from wanting to stay
instead getting on my knees to play
to find treasures buried in the sand
my heart heavy
a coldness in my hands
a feeling that will end
I don’t miss you now
I miss you then