A Open Letter About My Journey towards Self Realization
Dear World,
The last 14 months of my existence have been the most powerful, transformative, confusing, and tumultuous times I’ve ever experienced. Life moved on, time kept ticking, and I kept growing. It just didn’t stop. In the past year, I’ve experienced the entire spectrum of emotions from eternal bliss at Burning Man to the depths of darkness. Every facet of my life changed, professional goals and aspirations, companionship and intimacy, and spiritual paradigms all shifted.
The road was rugged and long it stretched from Costa Rica to California, the momentum started at Envision last year. After finding my highest excitement and chasing my joy (music and community) I came to an interesting realization where I realized my own impact on my reality, the universe, and those around me. I’ve always felt that I’ve been “aware” or “conscious” but things changed that Saturday night in Costa Rica. The download came to me that everyone has a gift or a true talent a brilliance that can’t be duplicated and it’s a piece of the source that creates and powers this universe. The ability, talent, skill or whatever you want to call it, was a huge discovery for me to tap into the innerverse and the cosmic power within, led me on a quest towards self realization and wielding this new magic.
The limitless abundance and joy that was a part of this inner conversation started to take place. The compass I followed was my heart and my creative intuition; music and words guided my journey of emotional growth, social awareness and self discovery. Writing and words have always been my forte but using them to highlight an issue or share an experience helped me connect on a deeper level to my community and myself. After all language and words are cognition without them we would be moving through a world of stimulus without context or reference. This path of suffering and joy was unequivocally balanced with people events and synchronicities presenting themselves in a such a way that it seemed that I had started my journey and everything that was happening was a clue or a hint that I was supposed to be following on a path to self and creative realization. With every big experience the takeaways got bigger and more impactful and the reflections became comprehensible.
Throughout this period of rapid growth, I found myself defaulting to old ways at times when I hadn’t fully grasped what was going on I would default to my old paradigms. Because I hadn’t built a firm foundation yet with my new beliefs I let myself and friends down at times. But their reactions and support as sounding boards for ideas or helping me gain perspective into the karma of my actions. Without them I wouldn’t have grown and gained this knowledge of self. Holding space and sharing stories and providing insight helped me firm up my foundation. I needed to take a break to reflect on my growth and unpack all the lessons, events, tragedies and triumphs that have illuminated this path I’ve been on. I’m finally feeling ready to tackle this spring season. After a cold and dark winter spring has come and I’m feeling ready again to embark upon the magical mystery tour of life.
~Jonathan