One track mind

Why does it feel like the world is spinning out of control? Why does engaging in the world make me want to draw back, and recoil in disgust? I feel as though i am caught in someone’s sick twisted ego trip. The only anodyne? To go out, and seize the opportunity, effectively cutting someone else off. It makes me sick. Im plagued by how selfish the world can be at times. Maybe what goes around comes around, maybe i just am suffering from a lack of preperation. My mindset needs adjusting, cause the world sure as fuck isnt going to change.