We are heart broken by your story. Thank you for having the guts to let people know what really hurts and that God is there for us. His journey on this world was not easy either, but please know you will have a place in Heaven and a place in our hearts. I hope you know that you have many, many people who want to support you and be there for you. In tragic times, that is something that shows God’s love is real. We will be praying for you and your family.