No Regrets or hesitation
“Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy in the God of my salvation. God, the Lord, is my strength; he makes my feet like the deer’s; he makes me tread on my high places.” Habakkuk 3:17–19 (My favorite bible verse).
Sometimes I really wish I had the power to go back in time to change certain events in my life. For example; when I was in the 7th grade, I copied my friend’s homework, I thought that my teacher wouldn’t notice that I copied it but alas she did and sent me to the principle’s office for cheating. My parents got an unpleasant phone call that day and when I came home my dad whooped my butt. At that moment, I really wish I had the power to go back in time to do my homework so I wouldn’t have had to copy my friends homework. However, I learned my lesson to either do my homework or just take the L and get points off.
I think thats the drawback behind this power of controlling time though, we wouldn’t learn from our mistakes and/or decisions. Think about it you would only want to change something because the outcome was not favorable for you. In the same way, I wouldn’t have learned that cheating had some major drawbacks if I wasn’t caught, I am actually pretty grateful that I was caught then and not now when the penalty for cheating in college is expulsion. The stakes are way too high LOL.
But learning through the trials of life is still very difficult. Recently the topic of “Living in the Wilderness” has been a theme for my church. We are reading through the Psalms, specifically Psalm 63. David is being persecuted by his son and this particular Psalm is David’s plea to God in this difficult time for him. What’s really striking in this Psalm is how David approaches God rather than saying “Why God?” he says, “O God, you are my God-my soul thirsts for you” (Psalm 63:1). DAMN.
To be honest I might have been like can I go back in time to never have met the woman who birthed this ungrateful mf. But David is so passionate about God and even in his suffering he exalted God and even praises him. He has no regrets of choosing God and I think thats what I want to share in this blog post. David’s life was on the line during his wilderness and yet he PRIORITIZED GOD. He didn’t question God for all these things, he merely accepted his circumstances and stood by God.
In my previous blog (Trusting the process?) I mentioned how that I struggle with the concept that I need to put all my faith in His hands because I like to be in control and to choose my circumstances. Well this topic of having no regrets also deals with this aspect. From the start if we make the decision to put all our trust in God and to take up our crosses to follow Him then we need to move forward with no doubts or regrets, he is for us and not against us.
There are days where I feel tired, tilted, triggered, and just plain angry because I am so lost but the wilderness we all live in is GOING to be like that. There are those “what the frick”(s/o to gk) moments but that only means our hearts are wrestling and being moved by God. Which leads me to my final point.
In understanding that there should be no regrets in this life following Jesus, LETS BE BOLD IN OUR FAITH. God warns us against the “Christians” who are lukewarm. Like I personally get so frustrated with people who can’t make decisions. Have you ever just spent 30 minutes deciding what you and your friends want to eat and you end up just question the existence of your life because literally nothing has been decided and you are still hungry? God wants us to be able to be all for Him and dedicate our lives for Him. Yes, we will do things that will make us bang our heads against the wall I know I have but it’s all in doing to challenge our status quo, I believe great things are ahead for me because of Him and Him alone.
“Jesus looked up and saw the rich putting their gifts into the offering box, and he saw a poor widow put in two small copper coins. And he said, “Truly, I tell you, this poor widow has put in more than all of them. For they all contributed out of their abundance, but she out of her poverty put in all she had to live on.” Luke 21:1–4.