Life Without Structure

I struggle to deal with days of nothingness. I struggle when I see a blank calendar. I struggle without things to do.

This is a tradeoff. This is a flaw.

This is my bias.

I prefer to always be doing. I get energy (as an extrovert) from being with other people.

I prefer making memories (good or bad) versus saving energy for a later date.

I get more tired when I have nothing to do then when I have a full day of going.

When I have nothing to do, I sometimes resort to bad / lazy habits. When I have a structured day ahead, I tend to reach peak productivity very quickly. I also have a lot more fun in the process.

I like to be spontaneous, so I do not plan my days super far in advance. But when I wake up in the morning, I like to have things to look forward to. If I am not particularly excited about what I have going on during the day, I tend to sleep longer. I tend to be more sluggish. I am less likely to go to the gym. I am less likely to think creatively.

So I try and make my days as “exciting” as possible — that way I wake up with energy and optimism rather than boredom and negativity.

On days with “stuff going on,” I am a creator. On empty days, I am a consumer.

I start every single morning writing and publishing a blog post. Some days’ essays are “better” than others — but regardless, I get to simulate that feeling of accomplishment every morning.

This is a direct energy boost that I start every morning with.

I have never had coffee or soda before. I do not really intake much caffeine.

I get energy from doing and the people around me.

Take away both of those — I tend to become lazy.


Originally published at gonen.blog.