…look like is someone who only cares about themselves and their own shit that they’re going through. All I can say is that when I’m depressed about my life, I cannot see any further than that. I’m stuck and mired in my own despair when I am depressed. I beg of you, please believe me, I do not mean to be this way. I hate myself when I am like this, because it is the antithesis of who I really am. And hating myself only makes my depression deeper and darker and more unbearable.