Why I Stopped Believing In Myself (and my dreams).
I no longer believe in myself.
In fact, as long as I can remember, I never truly believed in myself.
I tried to believe in myself.
I pretended to believe in myself.
I even believed that I could believe in myself!
But the truth is I never *actually* believed in myself.
I didn’t believe that I would get a corporate banking job right out of school.
I didn’t believe that I could become a professional poker player.
I didn’t believe that I could start a blog.
I didn’t believe that I could actually backpack through SouthEast Asia.
I didn’t believe that I could stay silent for a 10-day Vipassina Meditation.
I didn’t believe that I could invest tens of thousands of dollars in myself.
And I sure as hell didn’t believe that other humans would pay me thousands of dollars to allow me to help them get what they want out of life (whether they believed in themselves or not).
I didn’t believe in any of these things and somehow each one happened.
Wanna know what I did instead of trying to believe in myself?
1) I realized that I could still create what I wanted even if I wasn’t 100% convinced that I would be able to do it — I just needed to get this formula right (Desire> Fear)
2) I made the choice to surround myself with people who believed in me more than I believed in myself (coach, mentors + a powerful community of humans).
So, if you’re finding yourself in this space, first know that it’s normal and very human of you.
That feeling of needing to believe in ourselves has been ingrained in us from a very early age — a grownup or two probably mentioned, “You just gotta believe!”
Heck, I’ve probably mentioned something similar in half of my YouTube videos!
But the TRUTH is, you don’t have to believe.
You don’t have to believe me that you don’t have to believe (← did I lose you there?)
Don’t believe me, but do ask yourself this question if you’re troubled by the belief bully:
Do you need to believe in something in order to create it in your world?
For me, the answer has been NO.
How do I know?
Because I still don’t believe in myself + most of the clients didn’t believe in themselves when they came to me either.
I love you,
PS. I still believe in magic, but that’s for another day.