I Don’t Know…

*lobs self promoting soundcloud link* ←This is relevant.
“Funny how I always find myself in this position:
Infatuated, pen racing, losing sight of the time
But no matter how many verses
the person that needs to listen
can’t grasp the thought because my heart
can’t conquer my mind.”

I figured my first blog should incorporate a few things I love most: Music, Stories, and Me. This blog, like myself, will be fairly short with JUST enough structure to serve its purpose…and hopefully be kind of funny. idk.


Yea, on the outside “I Don’t Know” is just another “love” song. It’s a story about a guy trying to find the words to get a girl to notice him…written about a girl who will probably never know its about her. [That sounds kind of creepy now that I think about it, but anyway, like I was saying…] But like most things in life, it’s not as simple as it seems. This is a piece of my art and art imitates life. So this song is about more than finding the words to get a girls attention. It’s about being conflicted.

When I came up with the beat, (I won’t bother getting to deep into it but…) the feel I got from it was uncertainty. The arpeggiating electronic piano with its constant ups and downs, the bass-line creeps in soon after then you hear the guitar melody that descends and jumps back up throughout. I could sit here and tell you a bunch of BS about how these various moving parts are each symbolic of something different yet come together and work harmoniously… but I’d be lying. I just wanted to make something I could feel and write to, but I digress… (← — — did I use that right? …moving on)

“I’ve been thinkin’ ‘bout you, yes I have
Lately you’ve been all on my mind
Somebody please help me,
’cause I don’t know what to do at this time.”

See, the guy is wondering whether all the work he’s putting in is even worth it or would he be better off just letting it go. He finds himself in this same spot on so many occasions that its not even out of the ordinary anymore but solutions still evade him.

When I write songs, there are two things that I want from the listener more than anything. I want them to feel it and relate. Now I could sit and try to list the hundreds of ways this could apply to someones life but brevity is sweet. Also, I feel that by doing that, it hinders the listeners imagination and telling them that “it’s supposed to mean this” or “it really stands for this” ruins the experience. I just want people to play this song and be able to relate it to a time in their life where they were conflicted. Maybe they’re conflicted when they come across it. I wan’t them to listen and know that there’s somebody else out there that knows what that feels like. I want them to know that it’s ok to not know. I think thats what I’ve enjoyed most about this song in particular and the feedback I’ve received on it. It assures me that I’m not the only one.

“To say you’re beautiful would be too cliche,
No ‘I love you’ it’s too early to say
and all these songs are starting to sound the same
but I DON’T KNOW what to change.”

I guess that’s all.

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