Personal Positivity Week 5: I’ve Learned More From My First Big Girl Interview Than I Thought I Would

I’m not sure when it began, but for as long as I can remember I’ve never felt much worth in the things that I did. Even my resume, that says I did things, went places, and know how to work under management, had to be put together with the assistance of an advisor simply because I didn’t think I did anything worth putting on there. But I never truly understood the ways that those experiences could affect the possibility of my future opportunities.
Last week I went to my first big girl interview for a job that had nothing to do with taking orders or waiting on tables. The following week I had my second interview. And later that afternoon I got a call for my third and final interview. Is it sad that I needed these call backs to help me realize that I do have abilities and talents that are worth something? Now, I understand I don’t need a fancy job to tell me that I have worth, but it feels nice knowing that I have skills and a personality that would excite a potential employer.
I’m honestly not sure what it was that made me think that my past experiences didn’t deserve any credit. In these (nearly) 25 years of my life I’ve gone through plenty of ups and downs and learned a great deal about life and myself. Each encounter, no matter how laid-back, painful or frustrating, will always provide some sort epiphany or eye-opening moment that will help towards any future endeavors, whether it be a specific job, to help a friend, or even myself. I continuously face tough moments in life and sometimes need to remember that I’ve made it through some rocky situations before and can do it again. Either way, every one of those moments play an important role, even if it’s initially unclear.
We all have worth and that’s not defined by the job we have or how much money or stuff we own. Each individual has their own skills and talents that may differ from someone else, and there’s nothing wrong with that. Sometimes I feel as though too many of us live life trying to measure up to one another, feeling insignificant to someone else simply because there’s a difference in skill sets. Each of us walk different paths. We’ve all gone though various experiences, some similar and some not at all. As a result, we each develop different mind sets, abilities, and discover strengths and weaknesses in various fields. No one can be the best at everything, but that will never mean that they’re worth anything less than any other individual.
Some pasts are messier than others, and I’m learning to take time to acknowledge and appreciate mine. I have plenty of things to look back on and be thankful for, both great times and some not so great times when I struggled to recognize myself. Those experiences have helped me to learn and grow and that brings me to where I am today. I have big changes happening in great ways, and even though it hasn’t been a smooth ride, it’s certainly been worth it.
