Thank God For Treasa, Lance, My Parents and Siblings

If it weren’t for them, I would have killed myself a long time ago.

Seriously. There have been times when I’d considered killing myself. Maybe jumping off the fourth floor of a mall. But then I’d stop and think, my wife Treasa, our beloved Lance, Mama and Papa, and Joule, and even Joan, will forever have the memory of my death associated with that mall, and they would never be able to enjoy shopping there ever again.

Maybe a car crash? No, they would be devastated nontheless.

I love them. They love me. I would not want them to suffer the anguish of the death of a loved one, much less a suicide of a loved one.

But yeah, things appear bleak right now. My job is crap, my career is down the toilet. I feel like crap. But no matter how low I feel, I could never really bring myself to end it all in self-inflicted death.

Because I love them. I wish they knew how much I love them. They are the only reasons left for me to live at this time. Treasa. Lance. Mama. Papa. Joule. Joan.

I love them.