PSÆ: addicted in the bæ

JT Nimoy
JT Nimoy
Jul 10, 2017 · 4 min read

do u feel overwooked or that you’ve overwooked it? do u ever question whether u wook so wookie ur face is perma stolen? Do you ever wonder why?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JjTV8i_KjXM

Maybe just looking to keep it real preventatively while u party & love? Measurably unmanageable levels of whippit-huffing are on the rise in my famm-diagram. i see that addiction pattern from a strange perspective, with three years successfully away from [and spiritually done with] being a canister bell percussionista. I want to contribute that experience strength and hope to those who are outcrying*. (not necessarily those who need it, just *those who want it)

My first diaspora plur friendship was Palos Verdes Peninsula Highschool in 96. My first rave was Pasedena 99. The whippit addiction krept up as I grew closer to the raving community without first dealing with deeper personal issues. I started with £3 balloons at a liverpool psytrance bassment UG in ’06, progressed to tank parties in LA DnB UGs ’07, then finally watched my life get aggressively sucked down the drainpipe when i discovered the canisters, and their deeply pandemic ubiquity in the consumer landscape.

That was ages ago, and now I’m totally down to provide anyone with resources in that respect. There is a whole range of peer support networks related to this, u never need to feel trapped like that if u don’t want to, and i will provide as much support to you as my personal boundaries and other resources might afford. These things are free, but they mostly run on you wanting it. I know that sounds backwards.

I’m no plur angel. Harm-reduction fairy maybe. like, tbh, i can’t guarantee anything in my IMs and party banter. But like check it out, there is always support no matter what reality you’re mostly in. If your primary being is mostly stuck in an MMO, then 1200 linden says you’ll see even a competition of growing support networks — like do a place-search for AA mtgs. There are whole parcels dedicated to it, with mtg schedules. Stuck inside complicit geekery with no one who gets your syntax? Come overanalyze the shit out of addiction recovery logic with me online (but pls dont stalk me!). Did you float past the moth ball gates, through the memory warp speed, and into no-man’s land, but it’s lonely and terrible there? Like, I’m sure the divines will support you in that moment and encourage you to take action for yourself when you pass through and back to us. You can be open, honest, and trusting with them, for they are fabulously devine beings. Please reach out to the loved ones in the same dimension as your body cuz our hotline numbers aktuly werk there. If the white lines go away too fast, there’s even a cool rap song for reminding you about living life on life’s terms sometimes. If you’re worried you’ll have to step off the bus and that aint cool, check out the wharf rats, who are dank af. If you’re worried you’ll have to be not-punkrock and fuckall, check out straight-edge culture. All the things. Call for help until you get it. In as many ways as you can.

AA doesn’t have to be culty, or full of christ/god. There are queer separatist mtgs in sf.

basix

https://dancesafe.org/
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Harm_reduction
https://www.na.org/
http://www.smartrecovery.org/

dis riddim!

https://thrive.kaiserpermanente.org/care-near-you/northern-california/santaclara/departments/chemical-dependency-recovery-program-cdrp/

Call the shit out of these

Crisis Line: (415) 781–0500
HIV Nightline: (415) 434–2437 or 1–800–273–2437
HIV Textline: (415) 200–2920
Drug Information Line: (415) 362–3400
Relapse Line: (415) 834–1144
PWSS Support Line: (415) 288–7160
TTY: (415) 227–0245

Serious helps for the loved ones of the addicted

seriously, imma be that elf if my loverlies dont stop killing themselves off. If you’re that elf too, or maybe too much so, yeah i get it. my super hero power is getting my feelings hurt through brick walls and shit. and i have needs as an accommodator. so here’s where i can go hang to vent to a proper ear, and actually feel the knowing hug:

http://al-anon.org/al-anon-in-california

find your district, go to a meeting, share the story of your loved one’s drug addiction issues, and how it’s killing you, and that group is organized around your plan there.

did i leave anything out?

oh yeah, just … pls don’t die like that. i love the way you wook it.

JT Nimoy

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Creative Technologist Multiracial Queer Trans Womxn of Color, with negative levels of privilege.

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