*I’m ‘sorry’ it took a virgin 10 years to figure out what really happened in Mexico because the facts were so impossible to believe that they hid out until they came out through physical illness.

*I’m ‘sorry’ that I didn’t “master” the situation the first, second, or third time, and that marrying the last in that set didn’t fix everything.

*I’m ‘sorry’ that you all traumatized me so that when I fell asleep and my car smashed into a tree, “protect and serve” sensed my scars. he used the same underlying power and control that the others who physically, sexually assaulted me used. With all my clothes on, and his uniform on, he fucked me harder than any other, opening more scars than even I knew I had. *I’m sorry he had another Trooper and the ambulance driver watch. One held my glasses, the other just stood silently.

***** I’m ‘sorry’, MOST OF ALL!!! That none of you will change, and you will have to suffer out your miserable lives.

Fuck yourselves. I’m a survivor. I can grow, and I have more power than you will ever have all together.