Eleanor roosevelt said , “Do what you fear.” And, boy, are you doing it. Congratulations. It makes me so sad and sorry that all the love I had and have for you never got through. You made me who I am. My firstborn. With your birth I felt complete: All the phases of my body’s life on Earth had occurred. All that was left to do was die and I am now working on that. And you know how much therapy I had along the way. I vanquished poor Elizabeth Meyers Malin, which took me a while, and probably shut you out. Oh, my darling. Come back in. I love you so.

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