Heath, you must learn to separate your feelings from the rest… Some day, we will have more of a discussion about all of this, but believe me, sex and love are two entirely different animals. You will make yourself totally insane if you believe otherwise. The act of sexual gratification often brings forth feelings of universal oneness and enlightenment. That is normal, but it is only true and permanent if the meetings of the souls, outside of sex, feel the same. Protect yourself, dear one.