Life status

  1. Work is fine. I am pushing like a maniac to get a higher paying job. That is mainly applications and a steady programming. My only regret today is work being draining. So work remotely tomorrow! (You can work fully remotely if you just master a phone to Droplet to Windows connection.)
  2. Artery technostress pure faith. Pure pure FAITH.

Everything else is marginal.

Right now it’s obviously just vegetating my brain off.

So:

  • vegetate brain off
  • maybe go buy food later
  • tomorrow WORK REMOTELY

Figure it all out from there.

The key breakthrough is INCOME.

From applying to new jobs or from launching the FinWake app.

OK!!!

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Today in brief?

My biggest problems are still:

Loneliness

Horrible technostress-artery-inflammation health

Perhaps all else is fine:

Job

Money

Food

Social might get better in only a few days.

My last emergency issue will be technostress-artery health issues.

OK!!!!!!!

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I am really fucking confused about my life.

I have been pushing for a big breakthrough but I have no idea if or what is coming.

Tomorrow I have no idea if I’m basically getting fired or I am achieving a new level of stability in my job.

Go to work prepared to quit / be fired.

Other than that my life is simple:

Python is developing

Keep socialising

And just let the months pass.

OK!!!!

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New simple life status.

Nothing has changed.

The month is still an obsessive explosion.

But I would consider reducing caffeine.

I have to cook.

The rest is open ended.

And soon as you have energy:

Push ahead on a coding project.

It’s not as important what it is.

It could be iOS DeepReader.

It could be iOS Joyce.

Whatever.

Tomorrow you’ll find it.

OK!!!!

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Today

I have had a lot of different ideas.

But it basically amounted to an obsessive belief I was gonna make more money but getting swamped with work instead.

I guess I have to be satisfied.

I would be if I didn’t feel so uncomfortable around my roommate.

Here’s a perfect plan:

Go back and clean up quite a bit and find your debit card and consider changing rooms.

Relax. No rush for anything. Vegetate or find anything useful rest of night.

OK!

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Status

  1. 100% confident I need another day off tomorrow. Just feeling horrible. But should I send Skype message in morning?? You decide then.
  2. I guess programming’s going good. The next actions are UWC Patreon, a video for my patrons, c live interpreter for curses, and pushing super hard to master “a manual robust command line deepreader without curses.” OK!!!

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Another truly horrible day.

I feel like my artery is going to explode and I’m going to die.

Emotionally I’m terrible.

I’m severely lethargic and feel sick from chronic stress dumps in the body – weight gain, lethargy, inflammation, bodily dysfunction.

And I don’t have enough wealth to just relax somewhere balmy and pleasant. It’s just desperately work and hack (like with a machete) your way forward.

OK

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