I know exactly what you mean about spilled milk. I started pumping one night, completely exhausted, and forgot to attach bottles to the pumping mechanism. About 5 minutes into it, my butt felt completely cold and wet (and it’s kind of amazing I didn’t feel the cold until then), and I realized that my milk had just pumped out onto my legs and couch. I started crying hysterically and couldn’t stop.
I had trouble (and lots of pain) breastfeeding my first child, and I remember getting to the lactation consultant’s office and just stripping in front of everyone in the there, saying, “Please look at my boobs and tell me what I’m doing wrong!”
Breastfeeding is the most unnatural natural thing ever!