It’s too late and I can’t wait for you to be gone.
I’ve been thinking about rambling my thoughts out on camera instead of coming on to Medium or my private Instagram which only lets me have 10 seconds for each story? So I flipped out my SJCAM4000 and plugged it to my Macbook. The SD card is still inside and to my surprise, there were videos of me and my past.
And I hated the way he looked at me. I’m pissed off. I’m frustrated. Jfc, I feel used and only now I see it. To think I thought I was loved, it was all lust. And I hated it. I hate seeing the look of lust, and nothing but lust in a person’s eyes. I was just an object. And I was sitting there next to him, next to somebody who just wanted me for my body. For my stability. And back then, I thought this is the fucker who will be in my future and we’d support each other equally.
Why was I so, so stupid. Fuck you.
