Or… Fonzie says “get outta the way”
I think I’m back! Not that this has ever been particularly frequent… but I feel like it should/could be. It has really been on my mind (and heart) to articulate some of the things I have been wrestling with.
I have, however, been a bit preoccupied of late. I started a new role in September, and daughter number two (Jemima, sister to 3 year old Matilda) arrived in November… so as a result, I am experiencing significant cognitive load, at a time when my personal capacity is at the lowest it has been in a while.
Chances are, if we have seen each other recently and you asked me how I was doing, I probably would have said “tired” or “a bit flat” or something to that effect. I haven’t had a lot more to offer. I have been unsurprisingly quite exhausted. Resilience has been low, emotions high, and the creeping sense of overwhelm has loomed over my life.
But I’ve just had 10 days off (thank you public holidays!), and even though I am sick at the time of writing, I can tell that I have some energy back because I just have this urge to create something — so here I am!
I was reminded, thanks to some reflective moments during the break, that there are things in my life that bring me joy — creative expression, moments of curiosity that drive learning, compassion & connection (for/with the people in my life).
Even though I love these activities, I realized that I need a fair amount of energy to undertake them… Good intentions don’t quite cut it, as is demonstrated by a list of ideas and half-finished thoughts without anything to show of it.
It is a simple thing really. But sometimes you just need to have it out there in front of you. Without energy, focus & presence, the bits of life that bring joy, suffer greatly.
On the weekend I found myself listening to Henry Winkler (yes, the one and only) as he was interviewed on my favourite podcast (“You Made It Weird” with Pete Holmes), and in a discussion about the meaning of life, he came up with this gem:
“I now know, we only have a certain amount of time, in this body, in this energy, on this globe. If that is true, your job, which is the grand-daddy of all jobs as a human being, is to get out of your own way.
If you get out of your own neuroses, your eyes will be opened to all the possibilities of what you want to do and can do.
If you are not, if you are in your own way, if your crazyness overtakes your consciousness, and is the primary of your consciousness, you will be ineffective as a human being, as an… everything.”
There it is. Get out of your own way… by being quiet enough to move drama and neuroses aside in order to see your path, and be able to take it.
I love these serendipitous moments where somebody articulates exactly what you need to hear (and these moments seem to be more and more frequent of late).
Sometimes, life has to just be about being. About acceptance — you are who you are, and where you are. That’s it.
Life (and career) cannot be only about doing.
It can feel easy as an individual that loves continuous improvement, to feel the need to always be on, always learning, always be having ideas and innovating — to see that as the goal.
To fix ourselves.
We recommend that teams work at a sustainable pace for a good reason. The same goes for individuals, and we need to be kind enough to ourselves to recognize our limitations.
Alan Watts (whom I am yet to read) also came up in the discussion. After listening I found the reference was from his book “The Way of Zen”:
“Furthermore, as muddy water is best cleared by leaving it alone, it could be argued that those who sit quietly and do nothing are making one of the best possible contributions to a world in turmoil.”
So there it is. Be still long enough, often enough, for the sediment to settle.
What does this look like in practice?
Mostly… managing your expectations of yourself (and others). Be kind.
Sometimes all the thinking, learning, talking… doing… compounds the problem.
Let go of your need to control, to be certain.
Rob Bell (in another Podcast — Episode 115: Seasons) introduced me to the concept of “Liminal Space”. If you google the term, this is what you will find:
… the time between the ‘what was’ and the ‘next.’ It is a place of transition, waiting, and not knowing. Liminal space is where all transformation takes place, if we learn to wait and let it form us.
Between seasons of life for sure… but maybe to a lesser extent between meetings, between home and the office… maybe even in between tv shows.
The challenge is to recognize this liminal space, and not always feel the need to fill it.
To make the most of it, by doing nothing, and not judging yourself for doing so.
To not see it as boring, or a waste of time… but precious and necessary. As complimentary to the rest of your life that is plenty busy enough.
The holidays are over, I’m in a new office…
This is a new season. Time to get out of the way.