That sounds like a really tough spot to be in, Stephen. I’m sorry.
I’ve often imagined relationships as two people, hand-in-hand, on a road together traveling to the same place. For parts of the journey you’re walking at the same pace shoulder-to-shoulder. At times the other other person is a step or two ahead and pulling you forward. In other times you’re a step ahead and pulling them along. Maybe that’s your season right now. Hang in there.