an apology

“Crumpled Paper” ~Pexels (Pixabay) https://pixabay.com/en/crumpled-paper-paper-pen-trash-1852978/

“frivolous,” some said
“arcane”
“decadent”
“prurile”
“stifled”
“stuffed up”
“stuck up”
“pretentious”
“arrogant”
“obscene”

pointless, 
they said
and so they would have me 
believe,
yet
i cannot stop
this beast within
consuming me
until bloated
on leavings of my soul
dripping
leaking
spilling
bursting
trickling waterfalls
and violent explosions

these words,
frantic
to breathe,
i cannot contain
nor would
if i could

for want of beauty, 
i will apologize
for passion
i will not