How do we keep going when we feel like we can’t go any longer?

KScott
KScott
Sep 6, 2018 · 2 min read

Do you ever look back on your life and wonder how you made it through a tough time? I do this all the time. When I was in college, I would work three part-time jobs while being a full-time student. Reflecting on that time, I can’t help but wonder how I did everything I had to do. I’m sure it was exhausting and I’m sure I hated every minute of it, but did I realize how crazy busy I was?

I think the answer is yes. I have always been the type of person that is constantly busy. I overexert myself far too often in order to complete everything I think needs to be done. I know that I do this and I really wish I could stop, but that’s just who I am as a person.

I am starting to realize that I am doing the same thing now that I did then. I teach high school chemistry full-time, tutor college students part-time, and take online education classes for my Master’s Degree full-time. It is exhausting, but I keep pushing myself to do more; to complete more. Why is it never enough? I want to be an accomplished person. I want to be everything I can possibly be. I want to do more. I want to be more.

For some reason, I feel like I’ve never been enough. Never good enough, never smart enough, never pretty enough. I know this is very cliche of me to say, but that is the truth. I think I overexert myself to complete everything so that I can be everything I want to be. Since I’ve come to this realization, what now?

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