In love with my best friend…

For the past year and a half I’ve been in love with my best friend and he has no idea. I try my best to hide it, I try my best to not even show an ounce of how I feel about him. He probably knows everything about me and he treats me the best anyone has ever treated me. He makes me smile, and laugh. He makes me feel like I’m the only girl in the world. He shows me respect and doesn’t care how I look or how I dress, he cares about who I am on the inside.

I have these strong feelings for him and I’ve been keeping them locked up for so long now that I feel like if I tell him it would ruin our friendship, and how he thinks about me. He’s the closest person I have had in my life in a very long time and I definitely don’t wanna lose him for how I feel, but I can’t help how I feel… I really wish I could. It sucks to be so attached especially when its to your best friend.

I honestly don’t know what to do besides keep them locked away until the feelings just don’t affect me and how I think of him. He’s my everything and will always be my everything, but him not knowing is killing me slowly and silently.