Not My Best Self
"How do you feel?"
The question that lingers on my mind lately. And the worst part? I can only answer the question with "I feel nothing."
"Why you are in your self-destructive mode?"
I am really aware that I am stressing out right now due to my work itself. Everytime I reach this peak, I am aware that this is not my best side. And everytime, I will automatically putting myself in self-destructive mode. Eating shit stuff, alcoholic and right now a smoker. It feels like I am just running and not stopping myself to catch a break.
"How can you get out from this?"
I don't know either. Will you tell me how? Tried meeting up with people it doesn't work. I am constantly tired and didn't want to speak much with others. I keep watching movies and drama, but it ain't helping. I am losing appetite and I am lazy enough to even eat properly. I keep forgetting things. Even my friends name. I just want to lie down and do nothing.
"So what you do now?"
I don't know. And it's a dreadful answer that I don't like to hear as well. Waiting it will pass soon. I hope so.
