Everything you do is not Gold, but it doesn’t matter..

I have been trying to write for years, I have a blogs on Wordpress, Blogger and even on Quora. All of the them contains one or two introductory blogs. After that I don’t write at all. Chances are this might be the only post I write on Medium. But why do I do this? I am sure there must be other people like me. So I investigated the answer.

To understand this lets take a couple of small examples.

#Example 1

Their are certain things that I do pretty well. I am a Computer Science student and I like to create stuff. Some projects I do comes out to be really well, like I made an Arduino library in Nodejs called Angduino . Some projects are a total mess, like I tries to create a balancing robot.Instead it turned out to be dancing/falling robot. And I still keep making small project as I learn new things. I love to see Ideas turning into real things.

#Example 2

I do poetry in Hindi . I do it for myself. I rarely write them but I do. A very few people around me knows about it. I do not write poems because I want to show people my work of art (which it is not), but because it helps me express my own feeling in a better way to myself. Most of those poems must be shitty, but I still like to write them.

The problem with my writing is that every time I write, I imagine it to come out to be a master piece. Its is not that I don’t have words to say. Its just that my focus is not on the work I am doing, it on how it will look to others; it ruins everything. I want it look like the best writers on Medium or on Quora which of course is not possible for a newbie like me. Even at this point I am thinking the same thing, that whether people are going to read this post or not. Realizing that everything I do is not going to be a work of art, has been difficult for me. It has stopped me from writing stuff that I could have written a long ago. It takes time to be good at something. It is not possible for me to write one good article before writing many bad articles. And even after you become a pro, the topic of the post still applies to you. But the good thing is that its not important that this post has to be good. What’s important is that am I writing or not. So to all those people like me, stop taking your writing too seriously, no body gives a damn about what you write, just write something, write about “writing” itself like me. And I hope this is not my last post on Medium.