Thrive

Recently, Ive been posed with the question of “what if”. A question which has always been in the back of my mind. I’ve recently realized that I am giving my time and attention to the wrong questions. I let my anxiety control me — DUH — anxiety disorder. I kept asking, “What if I fail?”, “What if my best is not good enough?”, “What if mental illness consumes me?”, “What if I can’t pay my bills?” , “What if I let those who love me down?”. What I was not asking myself was “What if I SUCCEED?”. Wait, why have I never thought of that before? My dad always has, and always will tell me “Kasie, anything you put your mind to you can do. You always have”. So, here I am. I have to put my mind to it.

So my thought pattern is changing..

“What if I beat this anxiety disorder?”

“What if one day I am SO successful I do not need a service dog?”

“What if one day you maintain and hold healthy relationships?”

“What if one day you find healing?”

And in this moment, thinking about these “what if” questions, I no longer feel that fear. I will thrive — not just survive.