The next chapter.
I think there’s a time in everyone’s life where you feel so desperate to create something new, that staying with the familiar actually becomes physically uncomfortable. You feel fraudulent to yourself.
Twenty years ago, I would have been completely content with sticking with what I knew over what I thought could conspire, simply because it was comfortable. It might not have been ideal, but it was decent enough not to abandon.
It’s kind of like shoes. I’ve had the same pair of hiking boots for a small eternity. Are they fashionable? Not even a little. Do I even do that much hiking? No. Would I go out of my way to buy a new pair? Not a chance. These work just fine.
My apologies to one of my favorite people on the planet — Emily. That previous paragraph would likely be considered blasphemous in her world.
I’ve reached a point where something new has to emerge. I can’t ignore the feeling that growth is required. I know what I’m capable of doing, and not doing it has become painful.
I am making so many positive changes right now. I’m opening my world up to new possibilities. I’m getting my health in order. I’m trying to become better at honoring my home and the money I earn. I am trusting my inner voice. Kudos to Kate from Kaptivate for helping open my eyes. You are a light.
I am loving myself more fiercely and protectively. I deserve better. I do not need to settle.
Tonight, I feel inspired, and hopeful, and empowered. I’m surrounded by people who lift me up and show through example the power of authenticity. It doesn’t matter if you’re just out of college, or like me, in your forties (I’m judging myself right now, just to be transparent here). There is NEVER a bad time to claim your truth.
So, if you need a writer, a speaker, a passionate advocate for better access to resources for brain disorders, a storyteller, or a friend and ally, please reach out to me. It’s time.
Don’t wait to do the thing. Start now. Be afraid and do it anyway. That’s what I’m doing, and so far, so good. Fingers crossed.