I was lucky enough to see the league as a fly on the wall, so to speak, for 24 years. To see former players walk is to bear witness to the beating they take. And I follow head trauma stories very closely. Hard to reconcile loving the game and caring for those who play it. (Oh, also: greed, arrogance, entitlement by the league itself; treating players like cattle and not as the grown men they are… and more).