I am lost.

Beautifully, uncomfortably, crazy, lost.

A post grad nomad, as I’ve come to call it.

After graduating college 4 months ago, I quit my job, moved back in with my parents and spent the summer traveling, exploring and adventuring through a much needed life pause.

“Life pause” is a term I came across in the book, I Just Graduated, Now What? written by Katherine Schwarzenneger. It describes a time period in your life where you tell yourself that it’s ok to take a break.

It’s ok to take a break.

The book gathers advice from some of today’s most accomplished individuals in music, philanthropy, journalism and business on their path to success. It demonstrates that there’s no right answer and no guidebook on what the right path for you is.

I’d be lying if I said that weren’t times when I feel misunderstood, confused, and alone. Knowing that not only my peers, but the people who I perceive to be successful have also gone through the same thing, brings a sense of peace to my sometimes chaotic thoughts.

I have a bachelor’s degree in Hospitality Administration with an emphasis on Meeting and Event Management from the University of Nevada, Las Vegas. I hung up my diploma today, and as I stepped back to look at it, I found myself asking every grad’s dreaded question, “what’s next?”

I’ve struggled with this question for months now. I was frustrated that I didn’t have a straight answer, or a plan. Graduating at 23 means I’ve spent 18 years in school and it’s always something I’ve had to fall back on. Now, I have so many choices ahead of me as to what to do, I feel overwhemed and can’t seem to make any decision.

Que in the seemingly endless labriynth of questions: What if I choose the wrong career path? What if it doesn’t have longevity? What if i’m not good enough?

& I’m trapped. Adrift in my own thoughts and doubts.

College grad, serving pizza, not knowing what’s coming up next and this is my pledge to write about it, to document my feelings, thoughts and opportunities.

Today, I will choose happiness and be grateful for the support system I have around me. I will be proud of how far I have come and begin creating the future of my dreams.

Taking a break and figuring it out one day at a time.

I am beautifully, uncomfortably, crazy, lost and i’m perfectly ok with that.