this thing made me want to kill myself lol

Dan, please do not hate yourself for being trans. Don’t let this wrong headed argument make you feel bad about yourself or make you want to harm yourself. I think it would be a good idea for you to talk with someone about your feelings. If you are in Canada or the US you can call this support line for trans people.

Anyone who ever makes the argument that you are not really a man, can only do so if they ignore glaring facts. Your brain is male, and transgender is simply a normal variant of development that has always existed. As a male you deserve to not be singled out just because you developed differently.

I don’t know what else to say to you, except that these people are wrong and there are a lot of people that disagree with them. It’s pretty obvious to me when I’m interacting with a man or a woman. I’ve yet to meet a trans person whose gender identity didn’t seem perfectly natural. My point is, you are a young person, so it may be hard to see now, but there is a wide world out there with all kinds of people who will see your humanity, and who will understand that you are male, you are a man. It is my sincere hope that you believe this yourself, and that you love yourself.

I’m a cisgender woman, and I’m in love with my girlfriend, a transgender woman. We have a wonderful life together. You can have a wonderful life too, there is a lot to live for and a lot to look forward to.