No words

How do I put into words the way you make me feel.

Its more than just a feeling but an aching that I can’t quite figure out.

I don’t need you. But I see you and it lights a desire in me that I can’t seem to walk away from.

I see that look in your eye. The twinkle and slight smile that I know you only mean for me. What am I supposed to do with that? How am I supposed to respond?

I respond the only way I can, with a twinkle in my eye and a slight smile in return.

When will this end? Is this just a game? Will you someday realize you want her more than me? Will we just become a distant past? Maybe. But I have to believe our connection is deeper than that.

I want you to choose me. I want you to see me in a way you don’t see her. I want this to be the fairy tale ending. I want you to see that you and I have a connection that you can’t have with anyone else. I want it to be like the book that you read over and over again.

But it can’t. I get that. So I cry. I weep to myself and go into tomorrow ready to face you with the same uncertainty that I go to bed with tonight.