정중한 고통 / GENTLE HARM by Moonassi

At my last session, my therapist asked me what I wanted to talk about. I had never felt more guilty saying it, but after 23 years of silence, I replied “I think I want to forgive my parents.” In that moment, I gave myself permission for the first time in my life to acknowledge out loud the resentment I carry towards my parents and the way I was raised. Even typing this now, I have tears running down my cheeks from the guilt of speaking out against the people who sacrificed everything to give me the best life they could…


구원 / SAVE by Moonassi

Step 1: Acknowledge the fear. I’m not enough, and that’s okay. Where am I going and how do I get there? Can I even leave? I don’t need to know the answers yet. Sit beside the emotions and watch them bleed until you can’t anymore. Don’t reach for the bandaid this time.

Step 2: Paint the fear in every way I can. I don’t know it by name, but I can see it, therefore I can tell you what it looks like. Like a wanted poster, I know what to look for the next time it breaks in.

Step 3…


마음의 불꽃 / MIND LIKE FIRE by Moonassi

Falling. From an endless pool of the blackest black you’ve ever seen. Softly, like a silk feather, sliding down the clouds of neon pink into a forest of gold knives. Knives tall enough to confuse a skyscraper of it’s identity. Who are you?

As you float down to them, you notice the blades are dripping with fresh honey. The scent of sugar penetrates everything around you, seeping into your blood like electricity. The knives curl and bend as you approach, catching your weightless body in a cradle of soothing, frigid metal. They melt around you to fit perfectly, molding to…


불면의 낮 / SLEEPLESS DAYS by Moonassi

Addiction. When you hear that word, your mind instantly conjures up the image of alcohol or drugs. Or maybe money or toxic relationships. Perhaps even lying, or as an addict might call it, “the delicate art of stretching the truth”. We think of addiction as something destructive, an inner demon that leads to one’s demise. It’s a dark word that we hope will never be placed as a label on ourselves or anyone we love. After all, “too much of anything can be a bad thing”, said our parents. But what if that very demon we all run from was…


불가항력 / ON THE OTHER HANDS by Moonassi

How often do you stop to think about why you do the work you do every day? For a while, I didn’t know why. Why was I so stuck on online office hours, or helping someone share their notes, or getting some students to host their own study session? Sure education tools are important, but it wasn’t until I thought about the “why” that I realized how life changing this could be. I didn’t realize how much I care about whether the world is getting the knowledge it deserves. But when education has the power to change quite literally everything…


가시방석 / THORNY BUSH YOU WISH TO STAY by Moonassi

I’ve wanted to write about living with imposter syndrome for a while now because I know it’s something that so many of us face yet don’t even realize. For the longest time I had no explanation for what I was feeling, and opted to just group the emotions in with my depression and anxiety. It wasn’t until I heard Michelle Obama talk about dealing with imposter syndrome that I realized it was its own isolated problem, and something that I definitely wasn’t alone in feeling. …


When you’re five, there isn’t a single word in your world that can explain why leaving your bed makes you so unhappy. And how was I or my Dad supposed to know that at seven, being told that you’ve done something minutely wrong will live in your head for the next 4 months straight? At the forgotten age of nine, I just assumed that happiness wasn’t a feeling that was meant to be felt often. At twelve, my parents finally started to worry about why I made so many best friends just to end up losing them all. When I…

Kavitta Ghai

Sometimes I like writing. Co-founder at Nectir.io.

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