2/9/16

That’s exactly what it was.
I fell for a fantasy. A mirage. An illusion.
I’ve tricked myself, my mind, and heart, once again.
You’ve hypnotized me with your charming eyes and pierced your venom into my bloodstream.
Oh, how I lusted for more.
Craved even.
Like a drug that I refused to withdraw from.
I knew how dangerous, powerful, and additive you were
But I didn’t care.
Everyone around me saw that you collapsed each and every one of my veins
But I didn’t mind.
I didn’t even have you entirely, but I acted like I did.
I held off of my wicked ways, for you, for our, sake.
You were the only thing in my field of vision, but I wasn’t even in a mile radius in yours.
I’m a fool for being played, not taken seriously, or even given a fair shot — again.
All in all, the allies around me watched you take the life out of me.
They watched me fall to my knees, once again.
They watched me take my last breath
All because of this phantasm, where I saw euphoria, but essentially was an industrial wasteland.