What’s the Adventure?
I am at the precipice of my teaching career.
Staggering between my second and third year of teaching, I find myself needing a change.
I am frustrated in feeling so “burnt out” and knowing that it should not be so difficult and painful so early on. This is a career you get into for the long haul and I never thought I would be the teacher that would be in this place. I went into this knowing all of the “down sides” and still seeing the meaning and purpose of doing it anyway. I still feel this is what I am meant to do, but I don’t feel like a success story.
Right now, I don’t want to place blame, but I do feel that it has so much to do with my environment. I feel like I am a positive person wrapped in a world of negativity. I know that I succumb to the energy of those around me very easily. I feel things — everything — so deeply. It’s dangerous for my mental health when it comes to work because I hear absolutely nothing but negativity around me. There is never a “good job” or “way to go,” frankly, I’m lucky if I even get a passing “thank you.” Overall, I cannot name an instance where a superior in my school building gave a single positive and sincere word to me. It’s so draining.
Without spending this entire post reflecting on such negative feelings, I wanted to remind myself and update those of you out there who may read this of where I am starting. Right now I feel like something has to give, this job has to change, or I have to move on. I don’t want to leave my school or make such a drastic change, but I need something to improve so I don’t destroy myself or the happiness I have built in my life.
This is a place where I intend to collect my thoughts, however sporadic, and reflect on this upcoming year. This is not to say that this blog will solely be about teaching, but also about my life, love, and my own health mentally and physically. I want to document this year so that I can ensure I am taking care of myself and my world and can make productive decisions, changes, etc. My hope is that this next year I can stay conscious of where I am health-wise, keep track of my teaching career and where it needs to go, and keep my personal life balanced.
Here’s to a year of positivity and hopefully keeping and growing the happiness in my life. Stay tuned.
