Men-their undiscriminating love

this is purely from my observations and experience.

Of course, i do not have many love life experiences or experiments to have written down a piece of my analysis, but I certainly do have a decent amount of encounters.

I found out that men are actually quite magnanimous when it comes to love, rather the precise word will be undiscriminating to most types of women. If you are a man and think this is a compliment, and intend to utter merci beaucop…. please hold your thoughts for a moment.

Very realistic world. rather hypocritical.

My first encounter was in fact a fun size, short chinese man. honestly i do not have any sort of chemistry and the thing that bond us together was just purely the activities that we have been with. ideology and values are really of the opposite poles. despite i am born in a chinese family, i have no trace of chinese culture in me, practically i am raised and partly influenced by my boyfriend to be very individualistic and independent. i travel a lot and able to adapt to all levels of communication except one thing, male chauvunism. i tend to put men back to their place when they are trying or close enough to exert their male chauvunism. I take equal respect from both gender after all. Well this fun size man found I rather intimidating because i was a better hiker than he is, I mean a faster one. Well I am not competing I was there for the nature.

Second chinese encounter was pretty decent, all the good criterias that a safe and practical woman wanted in a man. I am no where near safe. Being rich, is being humble and clearly a man with lots of money tends to feel he is more powerful. I am not your average bimbo. Cars and houses do not impress me. My idea of a decent man is when I remove all material goods around you, could you still be confident and comfortable as you are? Chinese men are decent when you plan to settle down, decent I mean boring. Risk taker girls, they are not for you.

another man that i truly regard as someone who has deeper understanding in culture and rather humble in his own way was one of my close acquaintance. i could sense some mixed signals from him way before when i first met him, honestly i was attracted as well. A man that is calm and possess a sense of direction. I rather not to be too assuming that people’s kindness and friendliness as being interested in you. We do communicate in whole lot different level, lots of exciting chemistry, and deeply enriching. Our topic varies into the exciting physical activities and how we view some trail runners to the extend of appreciation for nature and indian culture. But it was rather disheartening when he told me that he actually like me and still do when he is about to get marry. I told him this is not right and what do you expect? Sometimes things are better keep unsaid and keep the chemistry rolling on.

Best part was the next encounter, he is a very ambitious and smart man, and I have always look up to him because his ability to juggle with lots of different responsibilities and still thrive. It makes me wonder as well how can this person can handle everything so successfully. A great listener, with perfect smile all the time and treats everyone genuinely nice. Who would have thought in zillion years that he actually wanted something from me as well? But in a most amicable way. In fact that he is married with kids has taken me aback from a moment. A man who do not discriminate? Here you will have the best example.

Next one was a very good looking frenchman, who seems to be enthusiastically interested. Too be honest, as i wish all europeans to be deeper, this does not seems to be the case. I would rather find myself ennui to the extend i was not motivated to do anything in his presence. As a display item it will be interesting, still a bimbo of a man and counting on his looks would not last forever. As all frenchmen go, they too love just about every women. This remind me so much about a good friend of mine who still has a crush on me who has went back to France. every single day he would still text me how much he misses me and wanted to be with me, at first I thought he was sincere but when I found out he did said the same to other girls, he makes me believe he is like the OS from the movie voiced over by scarlett johanson “Her”. His choice of women to flirt with certainly is very inclusive.

The best part was a spaniard that i was fallen in love with perhaps for a moment. he made me fall for him deep and hard yet leave no trace when he went home. but his existence is limitless as if he was still scrutinizing me from a far. he seems to know when to make appearance and it is very enticing. Yet he does leave traces of ambiguous and undiscriminating preference for women.

the best man of all, is my boyfriend. i cherish every part of him, for little that i know about him i love him more and more, in fact we have been together for 6 years now. for me he is just perfect, but unfortunately he is more 25 years older than me. somewhat it is not very realistic looking at it. best creative flair, humble, strong, smart, caring, adaptable, proud, decisive and very strong willed, and the most charming part about him is the pioneering spirit that not many man has. He has given me series of broken heart which comes along with his nature of undiscriminating choice of women during our relationship. i was so sad and thought it was my problem that i was not skinny enough, pretty enough or smart enough. in fact it is not. to be honest, i am still hurt by the fact he cheated on me with low grade prostitutes and escorts (maybe i should not be mean to these professional girls) the problem is that men generally have big hearts allocating for more love, or younger loves. i came to the fact to understand that i will do the same to feel how is it like to have such undiscriminating love.

i guess i understand how does it feel and a sense of empowerment to be able to do the exact same thing what a man can do, which is having undiscriminating love.