I deal with depression. There are plenty of days where getting out of bed is a struggle. I easily give up because even the smallest of things can become overwhelming. And, worst of all, I get really mad at myself for feeling this way.

Not every day is like this. Sometimes, I go for weeks feeling like I can take on the world. I want to do everything that I possibly can while things are ok. But, like always, that feeling doesn’t last and once again, getting out of bed becomes a laborious event.

I’m not sharing this because I want your pity. In fact, I struggle with feeling like I don’t deserve anything, kindness from others being one of them. I’m sharing this because I want you to know that you’re not alone if you’re dealing with something similar.

Quiet Desperation

I’ve felt like I’ve been pretty open about my struggle with depression. But, I don’t think I’ve been as open as I should be. Usually, I’ll only bring it up when it’s necessary. I don’t think that’s what I’m suppose to be doing.

I’ve been bold enough to share my struggle with others, not knowing how they would respond. Let’s be honest, there’s still plenty of people out there who don’t get that depression is real, so there can be real fear in sharing. But, there’s been a couple of times where someone comes up to me later and shares that they’re struggling with similar issues.

I see a doctor regularly, I’m in cognitive therapy, and I have a wonderful support of family and friends. But, what seems to be most helpful is connecting with others who have first-hand experience of what I’m feeling.

I get the sense that I’m not the only one like that. Connecting with others who share the same illness provides an instant understanding. I’m very blessed to have plenty of friends and family who will listen to me judgement free, however, you still have to explain the unexplainable when talking to them. When talking to others with depression, they know what I mean without having to define it.

I want to get to know you if you’re dealing with depression, anxiety, or any other mental illness. Sure, it will help me with my own illness but that’s not my motivation. My goal is to connect with people dealing with mental illness so they know that they’re not alone. There’s nothing more painful to me than imagining someone else suffering in silence.

Connect With Me

I hang out on LinkedIn a lot so shoot me a connection request. linkedin.com/in/keegans

You can also send me an email at hkeeganb[at]gmail[dot]com.

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