Depressed girl in the city

Hello friends..The story I write here is about me.Well,it may not be a story but few incidents.I have an elder sister and I love her a lot.She too does the same.But the way she nitpicks me makes me weak.She is a doctor now.And I am an engineering graduate.I lost my opportunity to get a seat into a govt. medical college.So I took engineering.It was a new start for me.Initially I never regretted for not taking up medicine.But as days pass on people around me criticize me a lot comparing myself with my sister.My relatives , parents , acquaintances everyone hurts me for whatever work I do.They always discourage me,try to find fault with me.They never deserve me.I never care about such people.But everyone may not be the same in all kinds of situation.During those times I cry within myself.My lips smile but my eyes filled with tears,I won’t be able to speak,swallow.That will be hell.Being a doctor whatever my sister speaks eventhough it hurt others,they never take that into account.Her negative thing will appear positive to them.But even if I sit with mouth shut,people try to depress me.Walking through all these depressions I have become an unemotional person.I have now decided to establish my identity.I want them to respect my privilege.I am studying for civil services exam.I wanted to become an IAS officer and I am seriously into that.