I’ve been thinking too much about this recently and it’s scaring me a bit. I’m getting close to a year, the longest I’ve ever gone without a drink or 10 in like three solid decades. Approaching a year feels like a finishing of something for some reason. Like an ending. Did you expereince this early on? I’m disquieted about it. Mostly because these thoughts are relatively new. It reminds me of that feeling you get when you really have to pee and the closer you get to a bathroom the more intesne the feeling of having to pee gets, almost like you can’t contain it another second. It feels like that a bit. It’s unsettling to say the least.
At any rate, thanks for writing about your expereince. You are helping me.