Kudos to you for recognizing this. Time and time again I see people striving for goals that come from outside themselves. Heck, I have done it myself! Being an actor sounds glamorous and sexy.Being an entrepreneur sounds smart and successful. But sometimes, the reality of something isn’t what it looks like on the surface and if you don’t love the work, the process, the pain and sweat and rejection and reiterations, you will never reach or find love in IT, whatever it is that you think you want.
I think it’s lovely that you found yourself in writing and didn’t quit on your dream but were self-aware enough to adapted it instead.