Summer 2017: Lessons, Struggles, and Revival

Kera White
Jul 25, 2017 · 4 min read

It took me a minute to begin this very first post on here. What could possibly be worthy of being a “first post”? Especially given the fact that I haven’t actually written really anything in months because you know; Life. But, also because there has been so much circling through my head that it has been insanely difficult to sort it all out into their own separate thoughts. So I guess I will start where I have left off; Summer 2017.

This summer has been incredibly, horribly, and insanely busy. Every move I made was towards achieving my goals. Every mistake and struggle that came along with it was unexpected and but extremely needed. It would take me hours to explain all of the things that occurred to me over this summer (good and bad) so I rather just focus on the lessons that I have learned:

I Can’t Do it Alone:

Often I try to face my problems or struggles alone. Whether it be physically or mentally I battle it out myself. I constantly tell myself “I got it. I got it”; very similar to a baby just learning how to walk (right before they stumble into a dresser). So many of those closest to me tell me that they see the wheels turning in my head but yet, they don’t know what I’m thinking or how I’m really feeling. I saw this trickle on over into so many aspects of my life personally, spiritually, and professionally. I would have moments where things just weren't all working out for me and I would try to fight a battle that I could not fight alone.

I had to finally stop and tell myself “You can not do this alone, you were not created to know everything, and you need help; so go ask for help”. Help came from all directions once I began to allow it to flood in. Not only was I allowing other people to help me with technical difficulties or struggling thoughts; but I also allowed God to work his way into my life. My relationship with him has been pretty rocky these past few years. My stubborn mind and desire to be of this world drove me away from his love. However, this summer has slowly but surely allowed me to rekindle the fire and produce a relationship with God that was once broken. By allowing others and God to actually help me fight through some of these battles, I lifted weight off of my shoulders that I placed there myself and started to create peace within my life.

“Procrastination is Opportunity’s Assassin” — Victor Kiam

Back in High School I could wait until the day before an assignment was due and conjure up an amazing essay, take 3 take-home quizzes, study for a test, and get A’s on everything. Those were the good ol’ days when procrastination didn't cost me opportunities, money, and experiences. There were several instances where I could tell myself “If I only did this a few weeks back or a few hours earlier, that could’ve happened”. I have always had an issue with this and lately it has caused me some great opportunities. Well, that ends NOW.

I sit here today in an amazing position in my life but I need to always want more for myself; we should always be looking towards the future. I want to be anything and everything that I aspire to be and that only comes with determination and hard work; no room for procrastination.

F.E.A.R

F.E.A.R = “False Expectations Appearing Real”. This acronym means more to me then I thought it would when I first heard one of my Sorors say it at our Leadership conference this summer. I have stopped myself from pursuing things do to fear; false expectations. I have ultimately planted my feet in the ground in hopes to not fail or to try something that will lead to failure.

Yes I may not have failed at those things, but how would I know if I would have succeeded? I put myself in a position where everything seemed so terrifying and anything that required some risk wasn’t worth it. Living like that is not an ideal state of mind for anyone. Being constantly afraid of failure is equally detrimental as procrastination. So combine the two and you get Kera of summer 2017. Releasing this fear of mine has been a work in progress but trust me when I say I am going to become a risk taker and chase after those things that has been burning inside of me to achieve.

Summer 2017, was a season of struggles but it did bring me amazing memories with those closest to me. Soon I will look back at summer 2017 and remember all of the lessons that I learned and hopefully I will be in a place where all of those lessons were put to good use. I can’t even act as though I am done with these lessons or struggles. So, I take a vow to always accept them when they come.

Xoxo — KCW<3

Kera White

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22 Years Old, proud Christian and figuring out life one day at a time with God guiding my steps.

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