What energy are you creating within you to manifest your world outside of you

One of the many things that I realized this year was that I really want people to show up for me. I am a person that is impeccable with my word. This is one of The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz that I am proud to say I do well. I think the majority of my friends and my family can tell you that I show up for them, that I am impeccable with my word. They might even say I go above and beyond. What I have recognized this year is that I am ready for people to show up for me.
I began the process of getting curious around this… why this is so important to me, which experiences may have created this initial belief in me and as well we doing the work to changing this belief by writing affirmations, posting them on my mirror and religiously saying them daily. Affirmations like, “I believe people show up for me,” “I allow people to show up for me,” “I am supported,” “I know that people are interested in me,” and “I am remembered.”
I shared this “ah-ha” moment with close family and friends and of course they started to show up more but it still wasn’t exactly what I was looking for or needing in my life. What about those I had not shared this with? What about strangers or new clients?
I decided to engage my therapist, Julia, in the matter and see if she had some words of wisdom to embark on me. During our call I explained to her how I was feeling, what I wanted to create and the work I have been doing so far to change this belief. She asked a great question which was, “Do you believe you are worthy enough for people to show up for you?” Wow, did that ever hit a chord…it was like she pushed a button and tears just started to fall.
Another “ah-ha” moment which again created another shift. I did not believe that I was worthy enough for people to show up for me. I began meditating and continuing daily affirmations around feeling worthy enough for people to show up in my life. I started to see more momentum but I still felt like there was something more I needed to do.
In one of my recent mediations I sat still and tapped into the wisdom of my heart and asked my heart, “What do I need to hear?” I listened, what I heard was profound… “Are you showing up for you?” Wow! I reflected on this more and had to fully own that I was not 100% showing up for me first. How could I expect others to show up for me if I was not showing up for me? How could I expect the universe to show up for me if I was not showing up for me?
The energy we are creating within us is reflecting the energy we create outside of us. Our reality is a mirror of what is going on inside of us. Basically if I want people to show up for me, I need to show up for me. I need to create the same energy that I want to receive.
All this time I was modeling the behavior I wanted in return but I was not showing up for myself. I have begun putting this into practice now and there are two things that have really shifted for me. As I begin to show up for myself first which means listening to what I need, standing in my power which basically means being true to myself… I actually am showing up for others from my truth. And more and more people are showing up for me in ways that I often say, “Is this for real?” Yup, it is real! Unbelievably real!
My recommendation to you this week is to look at what you have wanted to manifest in your life, figure out where you might have some blocks and then look inward and see what energy you are creating to mirror that outside of you. How are you creating that energy for yourself first?