Regret (Part 2.6)
The Move
Planning a major shift in your life is always interesting. All of my friends tend to describe it as “exciting”. They remind me that there are so many opportunities for me. So many things that I could be doing.
It’s frightening to me. There are so many things that I could do, but none of them match my original plans. Plans I spent years working towards and refining. Plans that are impossible now.
In a way I’m exactly where I wanted to be. But I never wanted to be here like this. Without you. Alone.
And the unknown. Not knowing what I’ll be doing a month from now, or a week from now, or a day from now. It’s crippling to the point where I’m afraid that I might end up doing nothing. I might be so afraid of where things could go and so partial to how things were that I just stand still. After all, staying where I am feels closer to the past. And the prospect of moving forward seems like giving up on everything that I’ve worked so hard for.
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