Surely this wasn’t easy to write, but thank you for sharing. I understand all too well what it’s like to not be able to relate to your parents in the way you wrote about. I’d love to be able to have conversations with my parents that aren’t filled with tense pauses or ones where I don’t have to censor what I say to make sure we stay on “neutral” grounds to maintain our relationship. It makes everything so difficult.
I was completely estranged from my parents for a time, but later we agreed to salvage our relationship by staying away from the topics that caused the estrangement. It’s been a tough road ever since.
I just wanted you to know that you’re not completely alone and that I share at least some of the same thoughts and feelings. Thank you again for sharing!