in the short 15 minutes i have

  1. Listening to music and zoning out is possibly one of the best feelings in the entire world.
  2. I become numb when I am emotionally drained. I can’t feel the world around me, and my head consistently draws a blank.
  3. Life has been a bunch of unexpected encounters filled with people who drastically challenged and changed me in a multitude of ways.
  4. My friend of 15 years is coming up in late September. That also marks the 15th year since I’ve immigrated to the states. 15 years… so many things happened within that timeframe.
  5. I wrote this in my journal yesterday, but I actively try to message my parents in English so they can learn the language. They couldn’t make much out of it before, but now they are now able to comprehend and respond to just about anything I send (in Korean of course). I almost wanted to cry when I realized that. We’ve come a long way.
  6. Reality moves too fast for me to register.
  7. Closing my eyes and not thinking about anything for just 5 minutes makes me feel 60% better.
  8. People are so busy trying to conform to their environments and situations they put themselves in. Is that out of passion or pressure? Maybe a little bit of both.
  9. Am I being a good friend to those around me? Am I able to meet them halfway? What is halfway? What if I’m meeting them all the way — or none at all? How do I know that?
  10. Am I aware of my feelings? Am I lacking self-control? How can I fix any of these if they’re not functioning in the way I need them to?
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