Let me disappear

I wish if I just disappear,
nothing there, and nothing here,
I wish If I was a dream,
waking up to nothing but a new page,
I wish memories stop giving me rage,
Rage that makes me collapse perhaps,
I wish if they see me instead of looking at me,
Wish To feel for once what you call harmony,
Conscious is where I found god,
Subconsciously I was here,
With that name, and this religion,
I wish I never see the truth,
I believe that one day, I had a dream,
I was an old man, uncivilized human being,
O’ god if I just disappear,
no more sense to make,
O’ my conscious stop calling it real,
why would you fill me with this fear,
hell is there and heaven is near,
O’ if I had a chance to kiss her lips,
Heaven is near, O’ one more kiss my dear.
Give me love and set me free,
I beg you to never let me disappear.