Happy One-Year Anniversary, Kiana. You survived NYC.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” — Marianne Williamson
Today marks one year since I packed up my life in DC and moved to Brooklyn, New York. To keep it 100, I wasn’t ready to leave, and I wasn’t 100% sure that the job I moved for was the one for me.
One year later and I’m officially jobless, by choice — “freelancing” is a fancier way to put it — but I’m filled with hope. I finally, clearly see the light within myself that I’ve been told about my entire life from those around me. It’s time for me to support myself as much as I do others. It’s time for me to stop beating myself up for not being where I thought I would be by now. Because I’m much further, and I’m on a completely different trajectory than I ever expected.
Today, I have the honor of interviewing the person who put out my favorite album of 2014. Today, I’m setting up another interview, with someone who I think will have the best album of 2016. I have these opportunities in front of me because of the long hours I’ve put in. The mornings I would hop out of bed early, finish a song or album premiere, then hop on the train, write another piece, head into the office to the regular gig, stay late, then go home and keep writing, keep listening, keep reaching out to great new artists. I didn’t realize it, but I’ve been building this foundation for a while now. Slowly, but surely, I’m starting to see the fruits of that labor.
I don’t know where I’ll be one year from today. But for the first time ever, I’m not afraid of the unknown; I welcome it. I welcome my potential. I welcome my future. I encourage you to look forward to the greatness of your own.
P.S. — Thank you to my dear friend Sara for sending me the quote at the top of this piece. Right on time, as always.