Kimberly Blue

Kimberly Blue
Another day awaits-
The cusp of everything
I’m trying not to again say
For every toll of now
Just let it go and let it sway
Just let it go and then let it wait
Write it relentlessly down
Pen the thickening words
And drip the ink with blue fogs of rain
Seal it with seeping blood drops
And set it down now
And just sit here and let the pages wait
It’s now another heart gagging day
The words I wanted to contain
The words I wanted to remain
Praying for some spasm of silence
Starving winged carriers of words
Refusing to leave myself a single crumb
For my lost courage and strength
Find perfect shallow holes
In wet neon grains of naked pinkish sand
Kiss them all, and find a way for lines to bury
There is no sanctuary
For me to peacefully fall inside
I cannot replace (the thoughts)
I cannot explain (the burning flames)
At the cusp of everything
Tomorrow, it never gets to say
Weeping not to wake up to murmured rain
Trying not to be eaten alive
In choking knots my heart bursts out
Gagging on the blood from my half-eaten tongue
So my heart doesn’t come out of my throat
And I must again lie myself swallowed
And set it all back down to pound
To find another spot of shallow pinkish flesh
For every brand new un-pouring day
While heart strings tether to blue
While sandy inkwells continue to somehow sway
Seeping blood thoughts
Cannot be replaced
Dying to one day explain
Let it wait in wet glowing sand
Someday unearth my heart’s words
Alive and living buried
Starving hard now to be eaten alive
The cusp of everything-
Trying to never forget to say
While another cold day awaits
Until someday I know that it’s okay-
Just let me seep out and sway
And someday please let me say….
Waiting buried in my shallow pinkish flesh, for you-
Won’t you someday come out to me and say?
Oh Kimberly Blue
Make your drops of falling rain
Come out and forever play
Or else just go far away
Into the awaiting words
From your pouring jots of always-never rain
Oh Kimberly Blue
Oh Kimberly Blue
The cusp of being buried inside
Your unsaid words of pinkish flames
With water spots dripping onto every turning page
Oh Kimberly Blue
Say that something that I always knew
Because your swallowed heart
Was never meant to pound in blues
Don’t let it all go, or forget what you had to say
Don’t set it down again, before it’s too late
© Kimberly Martin
