Wooooow.
I actually had to have my partner read through this for me to make sure I was reading it right as I wasn’t sure. This is a story close to my own heart as I have a two chronic illnesses, c-ptsd and fibromyalgia. In a week’s time, my divorce from my husband of almost 20 years will be finalized. His current girlfriend is 13 years younger than me.
I have no compassion for you whatsoever. Granted, your ex refused therapy. But before that? This entire essay is the whining of a typical man child. Gaslighting his disabled wife because she couldn’t put out, gaslighting his disabled wife because, literally dude, it takes SO LONG to come to terms with losing your ability to live a normal life. Awww, didn’t get the sex you felt you were owed by your wife because it literally felt like her vagina was tearing apart if anything, let alone your dick, touched it? How awful for you. That fucking term “victim mentality” is a gas-lighters bread and butter.
You used therapy to soothe the guilt you felt for leaving your crippled wife. It’s unfortunate your therapist didn’t tell you right off what a shit bag you were. You should have sat in that guilt and lived the life you deserved. But men, especially white men, never seem to get what they deserve.
“Did the manly thing”? You mean, did the pedo thing. Your wife got old, your wife became disabled. But don’t worry, your younger, stronger partner will eventually realize what a man child you are and dump your ass.
You’re not worth the paper your divorce decree was written on.
I hope the rest of your life is lonely and terrible and that your daughters distance themselves from you again.
