The Rhyme to my Reason
A reflection on the evolution of my writing.
Throughout high school, writing and English were two of my weakest subjects. I have always struggled to put my thoughts on paper in a manner that is coherent and correct. I mostly restated information in a summary form and never really took the time to look in depth with the topics and ask myself why and how a piece of literature was written. I was never allowed to step out of my writing comfort zone and think outside of the box when it came to essays. I wrote essays because I had to. I was given a topic or a list to choose from and was forced to write about that idea. I didn’t write for an audience or for enjoyment, just to get the grade and pass the class. And coming into college this semester, I thought it would be the same way, but I was incredibly wrong.
Over this past semester, my class was allowed to choose our own adventure, a phrase my professor coined himself. Deviating from his colleagues, he allowed us to choose our own topics with minimal guidelines, to see what potential in writing we could create ourselves. But none of us realized the method behind his madness, until the end of this journey. I believe I have grown as a writer tremendously by being able to choose what I write about and have found that if I infuse passion into my writing, more people will enjoy reading it.
I have always viewed myself as an optimist, someone who relies on self happiness and creation. At young age my parents divorced and I was plunged into independence in order to prevent myself from the upcoming struggles I would face as a child with two separate families. Many situations in my life wanted to bring me down, but I was determined to make something of myself in this world.
After writing all three of my essays of which I thought had no connection, I realized that they all related to what I stood for as a person. Even though the prompts were no where near similar, I somehow always found myself writing about self confidence and creation overcoming adversity. Through this journey I have learned to not only express myself, but to think for myself and to find answers to the questions I don’t know. Instead of writing for a prompt, I write for an audience, in hopes that one day, my words will become known on a greater scale.
For the first essay, we were given the task to discuss, evaluate, and analyze a chosen article from The New Yorker. I decided upon “Gender Studies” by Curtis Sittenfeld, which explores the viewpoint of a woman, Nell, and her one night stand with a taxi car driver, Luke, and her overall demeanor of condescension. At first glance the deeper meaning of this article is not easily revealed, as Sittenfeld weaves her meaning beneath what they eyes can see. I mainly focused on her self validation and how she chose to cope with her recent breakup. This connect with my theme because she was at a moment of extreme vulnerability. She had to muster up the self confidence to communicate with a man she met on her way to the airport, a situation she was not faced with in 11 years. She had to overcome the adversity and difficulty of the situation to make it seem like everything was okay when it truly wasn’t. Although she comes to the realization before her and Luke have sex, that she does not need petty validation from a guy she just met. She is confident in her job and life and is happy enough to get by in her daily life. In my opinion self-confidence can have no cap and at the end of the day you are the only person truly there for yourself.
In my profile piece, I wrote about the transformation of Jim Carrey and discussed how he overcame adversity to have his dream career. Regardless of his childhood poverty and struggle, he beat the odds and became who people thought he would not. He is now one of the most acclaimed actors and comedians in the US and Canada and continues to create a better life for himself and the people around him. This connects to my overall theme in the sense that he took terrible odds and turned them into the future he envisioned for himself. He created his own future despite the hardships he faced growing up. He advocates for self satisfaction and being proactive in order to change your life.
And finally in my choose your own adventure piece, I wrote about how dance can speak to someone without using words at all. Dance is a very expressive art form and allows you to create language through movement, which falls directly in line with my theme of creating who you are. If you are not a dancer, the importance of dance may not be clear to you, but if you are, it is very obvious that dance can have many positive effects and define who you are. Dancing can reduce stress levels and make life more carefree and fun. Your music choice and how you move your body can express mood and also your views on the world.
Combined, all three of these essay represent who I am and what I believe in: being yourself. In today’s world everyone is different, so for someone to hold you to a stereotype is almost ironic and hypocritical. It’s pointless to try and imitate someone you are not and much easier to just be who you are. So stand tall and stand proud; for an original is always better than a copy.