“Excellence is a habit” — me, paraphrasing Aristotle (like a boss). Which you know from music, but it also applies to life, I’ve found. I was miserable for years. I was EXCELLENT at being sad and angry and bitter. I didn’t even need a script or stage direction, I was that good. Then I decided NOT to be miserable and I found out that being happy is difficult and awkward, fml.
So, I think you’re fine, you are just practicing a (few) new thing(s), like being 100% ok. Weird, I know.
Also fuck anyone who disses ‘adulting’, I mean, are they just in denial? Rage? Whatevs. pffftttttt